January 12, 2016
I have loved you ever since the stick of my home pregnancy kit turned blue. I have loved you since the first time I heard your heart beat, right under my heart. With every kick and every tickle in my belly, I have loved you. Even when I couldn’t feel you, I knew you were there, and I have loved you.
The moment you came into our world and I held you in my arms for the very first time, just when I thought I couldn’t love you any more than I already had, I loved you even more. At that moment, I understood the new feeling every parent said that I’d feel. It was truly indescribable, almost magical. The moment I held you in my arm, I felt like a brand new person, like I had just been reborn along with you. My heart leaped with excitement for what the future will bring for you and for our little family, and I felt like running, as fast as my legs could carry me, towardstomorrow. I was filled with positivity, with new found strength, and a deep desire to make this world a better place. I was filled with hope.
I want to tell you something: this is not a perfect world that we live in, although you have made ours perfect just by being in it. There will come a time when the world you build up will bring you down. And that’s okay, because I believe that you will get up again. There will come a time when the world you care for will hurt you. And that’s okay too, because I believe that you will heal. There will also come a time when the world will tear you apart and toss you like you don’t matter, and that’s okay, because you will always find a home in our arms.
This new hope that I found – it goes beyond excitement, beyond positive thinking… it has become a conviction that life can only be better because you are here. My heart has been enlarged to contain all the love I feel for you and my arms have been made stronger to provide a safe place for you. You will always find safety in my heart and in my arms.
Baby girl, I have loved you since you were but a tiny speck inside my body. When you came out of my body and into my life, I have loved you. And with every passing second of your life, I know I will continue to love you more.
Photographer: Alexis – The Leonardi